Saturday, January 15, 2005
This is strange. Amanda blogging twice in a day? yes i'm weird. tell u something weirder. the fun, crazy amanda has just suffered a breakdown. yes a huge on indeed. NEVER in my life have i felt so dependent on someone else. I know the feeling of lonliness. TRUST ME. When i need my parents, they weren't here. I was so afraid i was gona die at home, till i actually cried in my sleep. Actually, i didn't sleep at all. THANK GOD for auntie Sharon and uncle Ong, they called their friend, a doctor who rushed to my place to see how i was. The feeling of my mom not being beside me is horrible, i don't know how words can express it. Thankgod someone came to my rescue. I was beginning to have suicidal thoughts.
The doctor helped me get an inhaler. I had asthmatic cough and i was having severe diarrhoea and weight loss. I want my mom. I was going to cry again but i have to be brave. i'm 18 years old for goodness sakes! a week without mom and i'm weeping like nobody's business? i'm sure my maid is terrified. She was looking at me with her huge eyes wondering why her little mistress is crying. I couldn't help it. My mom was my world.
Thanks to rafael too, who kept me company even for just 30 min, chattin on the msn with him made me feel better. Thank you. Without you i could've sank deeper into depression and have more suicidal thoughts.
Now i'm at auntie sharon's place. Those who are looking for me, don't worry. I'm not at home and i'm safe here. There're people to keep me company. I may have broken down, i may be in depression, but as long as i'm not dead, i believe i can recover.
Hopefully, i can make it through this dark stormy period of my life.
Searching......
(^_^)\(^o^)/(^^)v(-_-)"(O_O)|||
The doctor helped me get an inhaler. I had asthmatic cough and i was having severe diarrhoea and weight loss. I want my mom. I was going to cry again but i have to be brave. i'm 18 years old for goodness sakes! a week without mom and i'm weeping like nobody's business? i'm sure my maid is terrified. She was looking at me with her huge eyes wondering why her little mistress is crying. I couldn't help it. My mom was my world.
Thanks to rafael too, who kept me company even for just 30 min, chattin on the msn with him made me feel better. Thank you. Without you i could've sank deeper into depression and have more suicidal thoughts.
Now i'm at auntie sharon's place. Those who are looking for me, don't worry. I'm not at home and i'm safe here. There're people to keep me company. I may have broken down, i may be in depression, but as long as i'm not dead, i believe i can recover.
Hopefully, i can make it through this dark stormy period of my life.
Searching......
(^_^)\(^o^)/(^^)v(-_-)"(O_O)|||
Vuitton pen, 1/15/2005 08:14:00 PM.
